Sunday, February 04, 2007


Thirteen years and it still lives in the heart.

This poem was prompted by an exercise in couplets, but i guess it didn't turn out exactly that way. I am very calm today, despite a very hectic week in the office.

image by dsnake1



I helped her up from the bed,
her frail bony body trembling,
the bedsheets damp from the pain,
and fed the painkillers into
her parched mouth hoping
it will ease her sufferings.
There was fight in her eyes,
she will not give up easily,
as i forced a plastic smile,
hoping she will live till christmas,
as i repeated to myself,
damn it, no tears, she will not want it this way.


I was at her grave, with the flowers
and incense, her ashes just a stone slab away,
and i ran my fingers down the indentations
in the marble that was her name.
I remembered how i had ran these
same fingers down her svelte body
in a darkened room, when we were
younger and unsure,
the soft moans, the mad entwining
of hot bodies,
and i smiled and cried and called her name.


the image is a scan from a birthday card.

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Blogger floots said...

so much pain and so much love
the reality and honesty of this
make it a compelling piece

thank you for letting me see it

04 February, 2007 16:41  
Blogger gautami tripathy said...

It wrenched at my guts. Depth of can't even be reached...

04 February, 2007 17:40  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

thanks for your kind words.
she inspires, even though she's not around.

i'm okay. sometimes i just need to write something.

04 February, 2007 22:35  
Blogger polona said...

powerful write, dsnake!
the sweetness of the illustration makes it all the more poignant.
love and grief... why do they so often walk hand in hand...

05 February, 2007 00:23  
Blogger J. Andrew Lockhart said...

This one really got me. Wonderful.

05 February, 2007 13:25  
Blogger Pat Paulk said...

WOW!! The pain from loss never goes away. It cannot be expressed any better than these two poems have done.

05 February, 2007 20:23  
Blogger magiceye said...

palpable poignancy........

05 February, 2007 21:28  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh sweet Dnake,
In this month of Valentine's Day, or anytime, your lovely words convey such deep love for your her, I'm overcome.

Your drawing is so poignant: it was a birthday card to your darling one?

06 February, 2007 16:27  
Blogger Cold Cut Ten said...

Might not turn out to be what the exercise wanted but it is a very touching piece, sad and full of passion all at the same time, dsnake.

06 February, 2007 20:33  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

thanks!i think there are always equal portions of each.:)

thank you!

a WOW from you is always welcome. :)
poetry is a good way to lessen the pain.

thank you.

i didn't write this with Valentine's Day in mind. but i guess it's very appropriate. :)

about the drawing. it's not actually my drawing. it was a birthday card from her to me. i scanned it, took out the bright colors, add shades of grey and that's it. :)

thanks! i think i got the idea from 2River Review, the link from your blog. :)

06 February, 2007 21:40  
Blogger gautami tripathy said...

Hey, you have spelled my wrong wrong..


11 February, 2007 15:44  
Blogger gautami tripathy said...

I meant my name...

11 February, 2007 16:20  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

oops, so sorry about that, gautami.

i have corrected the link in the sidebar, but i think blogger is acting funny again. the correction didn't show up, plus a poem i posted today also went missing.

11 February, 2007 16:59  
Blogger Gel said...

Wonderful treasure that she made the card for you. Thanks for setting me straight. I can imagine each time you see that card, touch it...sigh
Love that deep, so deep it can't truly be expressed in writing, but is still felt- will always be felt. No wonder she still inspires you. Thank you for peeks into her, via your eyes.

24 February, 2007 04:59  
Blogger steve said...

was at the memorial service of a young woman yesterday - striking piece you have written

04 March, 2007 04:18  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

thank you.
what i wrote when inspired seldom needs much editing. :)
sorry, didn't notice your comment until today.

thank you.

06 March, 2007 23:04  

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