Sunday, April 25, 2021

white lilies

on the other side will i find you?...


photo by Mathew Schwartz at Unsplash


white lilies


because i saw a bed of lilies
last night
white and glossy and rain kissed
i kept thinking of death

how it should be life and joy and
our home
new floor tiles and italian furniture
and perhaps wines on rainy days

because it was eighteen years ago
one night
the tunnel lights throbbing heartbeats
and i, holding a bouquet of flowers

white lilies baby breath laces
pure scented
for my bride the next big day
to match that glorious gown we selected

and the lady who sat opposite
nodded smiled
knowing what the flowers were for
that the night will be forever

had it been so many years then?
her joy
when she took the lilies that day
and even her name was Flower

and i could not touch those lilies
so white
so delicately alive that my body
shook and not from the chill.


written : sept 2012
revised : 16/04/2019
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theme song from movie Spirited Away - Always with Me





© cheong lee san ( dsnake1 ) 2021

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21 Comments:

Blogger Magaly Guerrero said...

This mixture of love, loss, longing, and blooms left me shaking too. Why is it that pain hurts so much more when preceded by happiness? I suspect that the sight of white lilies will bring to mind your poem for quite some time...

25 April, 2021 23:32  
Blogger indybev said...

Lovely lily memory, beautifully presented.

25 April, 2021 23:36  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Magaly,

Thank you!
the night i saw those white lilies growing by the roadside, it was raining, and chilly. the poem follows quite naturally. whenever i see these lilies, it reminds me of that wedding bouquet.


Beverly,

Thank you!

25 April, 2021 23:43  
Blogger Helen said...

This is simply gorgeous ... so many emotions rising in me as I read it.

26 April, 2021 01:43  
Blogger Ornery Owl of Naughty Netherworld Press and Readers Roost (Not Charlotte) said...

An absolutely gorgeous poem filled with intense emotion.

26 April, 2021 01:44  
Blogger Gillena Cox said...

Joy and sorrowing springing from the same well. A wonderfull poem Cheong Lee san, even though it left me feeling sad
Thanks for dropping by my blog today

Much💛love

26 April, 2021 03:03  
Blogger Rommy said...

It's those small details that haunt us, far more than any specter in a horror movie. The flowers on a special day, the songs played on a road trip, the silly inside jokes no one else would find at all funny -- there's always a reaction and its always bittersweet.

26 April, 2021 03:25  
Blogger Marja said...

wow, an emotional deep poem of love and loss Very touching

26 April, 2021 05:54  
Blogger Rosemary Nissen-Wade said...

So beautifully bitter-sweet. I always love the restraint in your poems, which paradoxically renders the emotions all the more moving; and the way you can make a tiny detail convey so much – like a stone thrown into a pond, starting ever-expanding ripples.

26 April, 2021 08:28  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Helen,

Thank you! :)


Cie,

Thank you! :)


Gillena,

glad you liked it, even though it's a sad poem. :)


26 April, 2021 09:09  
Blogger Old Egg said...

Entering a marriage completely changes ones life and it might take some time before the couple can relax and then live their lives together. The memories of that time remain with them for ever. What a beautiful poem this is.

26 April, 2021 09:12  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Rommy,

yes, somehow, those small details find a place in our memories, and they can come back to haunt us at the most inappropriate times.
thank you for your wonderful comment. :)


Marja,

Thank you! :)


Rosemary,

Thank you!
The original draft was very much longer. i have pare off a fair bit of words. :)

26 April, 2021 09:23  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

it is, Robin.
a marriage changes a lot of parameters, routines. and the memories of that time will remain.
thank you for the comment. :)

26 April, 2021 09:40  
Blogger colleen said...

Lovely yet dark. Sweetly lingers.

26 April, 2021 11:37  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Colleen, thank you! :)

26 April, 2021 11:54  
Blogger Jim said...

That's a day I will also remember, both marriages. These little white lilies come to jog our memories.
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27 April, 2021 13:44  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Thank you, Jim. Those days are indeed hard to forget.

27 April, 2021 22:00  
Blogger magiceye said...

This is poignantly beautiful.

29 April, 2021 09:59  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Thank you, magiceye! :)

29 April, 2021 14:00  
Blogger A Cuban In London said...

That was absolutely beautiful. Thanks.

Greetings from London.

02 May, 2021 03:17  
Blogger dsnake1 said...

Thank you, Mario! :)

02 May, 2021 13:47  

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